Thursday, March 4, 2010

The Invisible Mom

This is a re-post from March 20th, 2009. I needed to read it again so I thought you might too.

I received this in an email a year or so ago and it just really struck my heart and what I sometimes feel on a daily basis. Truth be told, I cried and then cried some more realizing what I am doing as a mother does matter. It may not seem like it today or even tomorrow, but it does matter. Especially to God. I wish I knew who wrote this so I could give credit where it is due. I've read it many times over the past year and hope it will encourage you as it has me. 

It all began to make sense, the blank stares, the lack of response, the way one  of the kids will walk into the room while I'm on the phone and ask to be taken to the store. Inside I'm thinking, 'Can't  you see I'm on the phone?' Obviously not; no one can see if I'm on the phone, or cooking, or sweeping the floor, or even standing on my head in the corner, because no one can see me at all. 

I'm invisible; "The Invisible Mom."


Some days I am only a pair of hands, nothing more: Can you fix this? Can you tie this? Can you open this?  Some days I'm not a pair of hands; I'm not even a human being. I'm a clock to ask, 'What time is it?' I'm a satellite guide to answer, 'What number is the Disney Channel?' I'm a car to order, 'Right around 5:30, please.'


I was certain that these were the hands that once held books and the eyes that studied history and the mind that graduated summa cum laude -but now they had disappeared into the peanut butter, never to be seen again. 

She's going, she's going, and she's gone!


One night, a group of us were having dinner, celebrating the return of a friend from England. Janice had just gotten back from a fabulous trip, and she was going on and on about the hotel she stayed in. I was sitting there, looking around at the others all put together so well. It was hard not to compare and feel sorry for myself as I looked down at my out-of-style dress; it was the only thing I could find that was clean. My unwashed hair was pulled up in a hair clip and I was afraid I could actually smell peanut butter in it.


I was feeling pretty pathetic, when Janice turned to me with a beautifully wrapped package, and said, 'I brought you this.' It was a book on the great cathedrals of Europe. I wasn't exactly sure why she'd given it to me until I read her inscription:


'To Charlotte,with admiration for the greatness of what you are building when no one sees.'


In the days ahead I would read - no, devour - the book. And I would discover what would become for me, four life-changing truths, after which I could pattern my work: 

No one can say who built the great cathedrals - we have no record of their names. These builders gave
their whole lives for a work they would never see finished. They made great sacrifices and expected no credit. The passion of their building was fueled by their faith that the eyes of God saw everything.


A legendary story in the book told of a rich man who came to visit the cathedral while it was being built, and he saw a workman carving a tiny bird on the inside of a beam. He was puzzled and asked the man, 'Why are you spending so much time carving that bird into a beam that will be covered by the roof? No one will ever see it.'

And the workman replied, 'Because God sees.'


I closed the book, feeling the missing piece fall into place. 

It was almost as if I heard God whispering to me, 'I see you, Charlotte. I see the sacrifices you make every day, even when no one around you does. No act of kindness you've done, no sequin you've sewn on, no cupcake you've baked, is too small for me to notice and smile over. You are building a great cathedral, but you can't see right now what it will become.'

At times, my invisibility feels like an affliction. But it is not a disease that is erasing my life. It is the cure for the disease of my own self-centeredness. It is the antidote to my strong, stubborn pride.
I keep the right perspective when I see myself as a great builder. As one of the people who show up at a job that they will never see finished, to work on something that their name will never be on. The writer of the book went so far as to say that no cathedrals could ever be built in our lifetime because there are so few people willing to sacrifice to that degree.


When I really think about it, I don't want my son to tell the friend he's bringing home from college for Thanksgiving, 'My Mom gets up at 4 in the morning and bakes homemade pies, and then she hand bastes a turkey for three hours and presses all the linens for the table.' That would mean I'd built a shrine or a monument to myself. I just want him to want to come home. And then, if there is anything more to say to his friend, to add, 'you're gonna love it there.'


As mothers, we are building great cathedrals. 

We cannot be seen if we're doing it right. And one day, it is very possible that the world will marvel, not only at what we have built, but at the beauty that has been added to the world by the sacrifices of invisible
women. 

4 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing that, Alisa. I know that "invisible" feeling. However, I can say that God gives us glimpses of the good our sacrifices and hard work have accomplished when our children are grown and making their own ways through this life. It is very humbling! It took me several years to realize that the most important "missionary work" I could do, as a mom, was to rear children to know and love the Lord. You're doing a great job bringing your children up in the church and setting a good example for them. That speaks volumes to their young hearts at the time, though you might not know it for years! Love you! Anita

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  2. Morning Alisa,
    Good to hear from you hon. I remember reading this last year and was so blessed by it. Really gives one wonderful perspective, doesn't it! I was so blessed by it, that I went over and put a link from my
    Thankful Thursday post over to yours
    because it is a message all Moms need to hear!! Thanks for posting it, Please forgive me for not asking first, got so caught up with the message I didn't think you would mind.
    Have a wonderful day dear.
    and even if at times you feel like an invisible Mom as we all do at times, you are not invisible to your blogger community, we other ladies appreciate your wonderful sewing skills and menu lists and your wonderful sense of humor and dedication to your family.
    Have a blessed day my dear,
    Nellie

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  3. I love this! I'll have to share it my mom and mother-in-law and other mom friends. This reminds me of one of the concepts in Gary Thomas' "Sacred Parenting" about the legacy we leave behind by raising children. Thanks for sharing and have a great weekend!

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  4. Thanks - I really needed to read this today.

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